I have a hard time blogging. I have a hard time saying no. I have a hard time remembering to feed myself when I become busier than a bee. I have an even harder time saying goodbyes. So recently I changed "goodbyes" to "see you soons". It's worked out rather well in my opinion. I do not really understand WHY this is so difficult for me, and why it really has always been a struggle for me to get up the courage and say "goodbye". Maybe because it is too final. Maybe it is because I've been at college for two years and every time I leave to go back to school my mom clings to me and cries. Maybe I am an insensitive freak. Or maybe it's just that I don't like to see those that I love most become emotional over me. I do have a great faith that I will see everyone again soon, even when I'm just going to be gone for a few months. I realize it is extremely hard for a mother to say goodbye or even "see you soon" to any of her children. I'm assuming it's even harder for my dear mother because she is an emotional woman AND one that gave birth to an emotional but also EXTREMELY independent first born daughter (me). SO needless to say she is used to taking care of me and is struggling with letting go. However I think it is endearing, although overwhelming at times. I do not like long goodbyes, just keep it simple, mostly because I know how emotional I am, and I really do not like showing those emotions and letting my guard down. It's funny how that works.
To help with my issue in saying goodbye I want to highlight my last few months here in beautiful Newbury Park. I will illustrate with words and pictures:
It began with Christmas time and ended with warm Spring days filled with beach trips and pretty dresses. It had a great beginning with family and friends that I had missed so dearly and soon will miss again when I am not in their constant presence.
This is my beautiful family, well a small portion of them. These are all the cousins except one on my Mom's side, well immediate cousins anyways. We took fresh pictures for our grandma's wall where our faces are hung on the wall to be admired by those that walk into her home.
This was followed by a wonderful Christmas with family and friends along with a great New Year's celebration as well.
There were soccer games attended where I hardly paid attention until the last half, where we froze our tushies off in the cold stands. Totally worth it...kinda :)
Getting to hang out with my brother who also holds the title of best friend :)
Oh ya this happened too...
Trying to pull off being a gangster
Pretty entertaining when everyone calls you the "cute" gangster
There were of course girls nights eating nonsense while watching chick flicks on the couch all cuddled up in warm blankets.
There was the joy of working up to 40 hour weeks as a nanny for 2, sometimes 3 families. But honestly, I wouldn't have had it any other way. Those sweet children blessed my life in numerous ways. Being called "La La" by a two year old struggling to speak, or the smile of dimple faced baby when you sing to them was worth pure exhaustion. The experience, lessons learned, and the hugs, kisses, and smiles made all of the tantrums, poopy diapers, and whining totally worth it.
Being a mommy is tough. I can't wait!
Speaking of becoming a mommy....
Just kidding! Totally fake! But it sure did fool some people. This Winter I was FHE co-chair for my Singles Ward and one of the activities we planned was a Where's Waldo activity in the mall. It was a blast. We definitely had a bunch of characters participate ;)
Now I mentioned in a previous blog something about a certain boy I was missing, ya, well that nostalgia was fulfilled--thank goodness--a couple of weeks ago. I was priveledged to spend a week with sweet Cameron and boy did it go well! I also got to see many people that I love dearly along with staying with my best good friend Laurel. What a fun week long sleepover we had!
The original reason I went was for the festival of colors, however, as is typical of me I get distracted...especially by a cute boy.
It was a wonderful reunion :)
To say the least...I like him :)
Then it was back to home for a little bit to finish my classes, job, and say my "see you soons'" before I headed back off to Rexburg for my 4th semester in college! I never thought finishing up sophomore year would come so quickly!! To enjoy the last few weeks I spent lots of time with family and friends.
This included...
Trips to the beach with my girls :)
LOTS of sleeping.
Playing with Erin, my cousin and best friend forever :)
Magic Mountain trip with some of my favorite people. It was kinda the last hoorah for a few of us.
I love my Ashely Rose :)
Like I said...some of my favorites :)
And the crazy girls of course :)
I just really like my face here. So typical Karla
This girl is one of my favorite people! Moon bump! :)
They are all wonderful. See you soon friends!
Then there were photo shoots with my best friend. My mom :)
Playing with my mommy as she snapped photos of me in my new spring clothes :) Sassy of course.
This was a good and fun day with my mommy :) I love her more than words or pictures will ever be able to describe.
I like pretty things :)
Now i realize this is a lot t handle at once so take your time :) I need to be better at updating more often, but for now this will suffice. It's been an incredible experience being home and now it is time to go to my other home in Rexburg, Idaho. I await the long crazy nights with roommates and the driving back and forth between Rexburg and Provo to see a special someone ;) Along with actually being in a classroom! I look forward to library study sessions and devotionals and spring weather in the Burg. I cannot wait to get back into the flow of how I do things and live on my own. Thank you to all that supported me and loved me endlessly while I was home this Winter. It truly was an amazing experience and a worth while one at that :)
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